As Mission School continues, the more challenging things seem to be. This is to be expected. It is clear to me that when one lives in such a close community, conflict is to arise. It is also clear to me that as we pursue God more and more, the enemy will keep trying to push us farther and farther back. He knows exactly where is hurts. He knows our every weakness. Yet God is more powerful. God is Stronger. He will prevail. He has already won the battle.
Two things that I have been really wrestling with this week is myself and my desires. I wrestle with myself because of my depression. I try to let it define me. That’s what the enemy wants. I am fighting it. I am telling it that it does not control my life. In my bad days, my lowest moments, I’m still set free in Christ. I’m no longer in bondage to this world, to my depression. It will not win. My name literally means victorious, and that’s exactly what I’ll be.
The second thing that I have been struggling with is my desires. My selfish desire tend to control my thoughts sometimes. In order to be set free, I must repent of my sin and I will be free, indeed. I desire things such as attention, pleasure, money, and other worldly things. I must fight those desires with truth. The truth is God is the only one that can fulfill me. He is enough. Enough.
God is moving in this community as I have said. We are looking more and more like a family everyday. As we struggle together, pray together, and grow in the knowledge of the Lord together, we become more and more Christ like. It’s a beautiful thing to see so many of us striving after the God of the universe.This week we will have a new speaker, and have new things to learn. We will start serving our community. I’ll personally be serving in Union High School to help lead a bible club and small group. I’ll also be working at The Pavillion, which is the free coffee shop the BSHOP ministry runs. I’m so excited to see all the things God will be doing this week.
Pray for me this week. Pray I won’t let my depression win. Pray I don’t secumb to the desires of my flesh, and pray that as a school, we can serve our community and be Jesus to people. Thanks for the prayers my friends. Blessings.
When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord;
he brought me into a spacious place.
The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
The Lord is with me; he is my helper.
I look in triumph on my enemies.
Psalm 118: 5-7