One thing I remember from being a child is singing in VBS the song “I’ve got that joy, joy, joy, joy, down in my heart!” Last night, I could finally say that. Last night I felt Joy for the first time in a very long time. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve experienced happiness, but that deep rooted joy has been absent due to my depression. Depression seems to suck most of your joy and life out of you. Last night, I felt that joy though, and I will tell you why in a second.
This week we learned about a lot of different things. We learned the power of Agape love and how we can spread that love. We learned about the Holy Spirit and his powerful presence in our lives and his place in the Trinity. We also learned how to be set free from sin and condemnation. That is the best part of this week. We learned how to pray to the sovereign God and how to rebuke Satan. Prayer is something is so powerful, yet, we often forget how powerful it really is.
I also had a lot of fun serving this week. I got a chance to work with kids from Union High School with Youth for Christ’s Campus Life. Those kids have had hard lives and it was great to see them be able to be kids again. We played glow in the dark dodgeball, had a dance party, and a pizza party. I got a chance to get to know those students (even though I have laryngitis).
So basically this week, I’ve been blessed. As hard as it was sometimes, I still got to feel the love of God and share it with others. Last night we got a chance to watch a movie about spreading the gospel, then had a chance to reflect and worship. After that, I felt free. I felt free from sadness and free from sin. Even if only for a fleeting moment, that moment of joy gave me hope. It gave me hope to keep going. To keep living. So yes, I’ve got that Joy, that hope, that can not be shaken through Christ. The Spirit is alive and in me.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?