The other day, while I was scrolling through facebook, I saw a picture of a woman in a white dress dancing with what I presume was her groom. There were big white letters over the top of the picture with the phrase, “Dance with God, and he’ll let the perfect man cut in.” Now I’m sure many of you have seen this phrase before. It’s commonly used in these days of pinterest and social media. If you haven’t heard it, you may think it’s very sweet. I remember when I first heard this phrase I thought of how true it was and how excited I was to see who God would let “cut it”. This time, when I viewed the image, a different feeling came over me. Instead of a joyful hopefulness, I cringed. This comes at a time in my life where i have been thinking a lot about relationships both with men and with God.
My first reaction to the picture this last time a saw it was one of fear. I quickly thought to myself, “Well, what if a man never asks to cut in? What if God doesn’t let a man cut in?” As much as I’d like to believe I’m satisfied with my singleness, it’s moments like these that make it clear I’m not. I started re-evaluating my train of thought. Do these fears mean that I’m not fully trusting God will provide? To answer my own question, yes, I absolutely believe the fears I have show that I don’t trust God to fully satisfy me no matter what happens. God never once promises that he will provide me with a spouse. In fact, he does guarantee life on this earth will be hard and the prize is in his love and in heaven.
So, what does this all mean? Well, I believe I have lived most of my life with the mentality that this post portrays. I have believed, hoped, and prayed, that if I’m just a good enough Christian, he’ll find me a great man and I’ll live happily ever after. The thing about that is, I believe God already has found me a Great man named Jesus, and he expects me to be fully and completely in love with and satisfied with him. I also believe that if or when a man does come along, if he asks to cut in, I think instead of dancing with the man instead, Jesus will invite him into the dance with us. So, regardless, dancing with God is the thing I should be doing the rest of my life. Being in a close intimate relationship with him is what I should yearn, long, and hope for. If a man joins us or not, is completely up to him. His design for me is to be in unity with him.
These words are much easier to speak (or write) then they are to walk out. The selfish desires of my heart so often take control of my life and make me forget my reason for living. God has been working on my heart this week. I have found that he is drawing me closer back to him. This is what I have been praying for. In all honesty, it has been hard. Following Christ is not easy. It’s probably the hardest things you will ever do. Much like a lot of other things in life though, the harder they are, the more it is worth it.