The Clay Girl and The Scarred Hands

Imagine with me.  A small, beautiful, red clay person grows up to believe she is not good enough.  She can’t measure up to the other clay people.  So, she decides to try to fit in.  She gives up who she is in order to fit in.  That means she lets others tell her which shape to be in.  She is kneaded, squished, and squeezed into places she hates.  She is molded into a different person for every person she encounters.  Soon, she is molded by so many dirty hands, her color grows dingy.  The more she is molded, the more pliable she becomes.  One day, she decides she has had enough.  She wants to go back to the way she used to be. She tries and tries to shape herself into who she thinks she is, but no matter what she does, she remains imperfect and dingy.  She is afraid to be molded by anyone else.  She believes he best option is to harden herself.  That way, no one can mold her.  She may not be perfect, but she feels this is better than nothing.  She spends hours in the freezer, just long enough to grow hard.  Satisfied at first, but eventually worn by her imperfections, she cries.  She looks back on her life and looks to back when she was beautiful.  When she does this she notices something she hadn’t before.  Every single day, no matter where she went, a man watched over her.  If something destroyed her shape, he would quickly jump in and fix it.  If she messed her own shape up, he would gently knead her back into his image.  This man was the one that created her.  When  she forgot about him and decided to fit in, she wouldn’t let him mold her any more.  She thought he was the problem and she was better off without him.  Quickly, she ran back to the man, knowing he probably wouldn’t love her dingy, beat up frame.  The instant he was her, he scooped her up in his nail scared hands.  Quickly and quietly, he molds her back to her original shape.  He pours a thick red liquid over her to restore her bright red color.  Soon, she was even more beautiful then she remembered.  When she looked up at him, she noticed his face was pale.  He was beaten, cut up, and bloody.  She asked him why?  He just smiled at her and said, I love you more.  Pondering his words, she wondered who he loved her more than.  It was at this point she realized, he made her beautiful by sacrificing his own beauty.  Her pain, he took from her.  He dyed her to a beautiful red with his blood.  He loved her more than himself.  She cried out to him, knowing nothing she could say would ever repay his sacrifice.

It’s easy to believe we are nothing.  The world sends us signals every day.  It tells us we are not pretty enough, thin enough, fit enough, smart enough, good enough, etc.  It’s so easy to believe these lies.  Especially when they are all we are consumed with.  Soon, we start sacrificing our morals, values, and self worth in order to fit in.  I know I personally try so desperately to be loved sometimes, I will do just about anything for it.  For years, I tried to fit in with so many different groups of people.  I was constantly pretending. My friends, my family, nobody, knew the real me.  I honestly didn’t even know who I was.  After years and years of trying to “fit”, I hated myself.  I looked in the mirror and saw a dingy body and soul.  It wasn’t until recently I did a lot of self reflection and discovery.  Instead of pretending all the time, I was very bluntly honest with myself and those around me.  I discovered something through all this; there is only one man who will love me perfectly.  I kept feeling so ashamed.  I knew how awful I was and I never thought he could love me.  He does love me.  He whipped me clean and made me new.  I wrote this story about the clay girl when I was trying to describe to myself how God has taken care of me.  It might be simple and childlike, but it helps remind me of how he took on my sins.  That’s why I wanted to share it.  Forgive me if it’s cheesy, but thank you for reading and feedback.

 

 

 

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