Art, Music, and essential oils seems to be the only things keeping my afloat these days. That along with my ever so supportive boyfriend and family I’m able to get up in the morning. Though depression comes in waves, I believe that sometimes, no matter what, life can get the best of you. That’s where I am. I’ll raise my hands and surrender to the fact that I can’t do it anymore. I have to let things go if I don’t want to sink back into a terrible dark place once again.
I know that simplification makes life more manageable. That’s why I think I need to focus in on the things that will make me happy and further me in my future. For now, my health once again takes priority. Without yet announcing how I will be stepping back, I would like to share what I have been stepping into.
My writing, my music, and my art as I mentioned earlier have become of an utmost importance in my life. I can express myself through these mediums. They make life a little more manageable. I also have been watching closely what I eat and changing my lifestyle some after a health scare a couple of weeks ago.
I don’t want to be in the hospital again and I intend to do everything in my power to keep a level head. My withdrawal from things isn’t bad right now. It probably just means I’m overwhelmed.
With all that, I want to apologize if I’ve seemed distant lately. My distance does not convey a lack of love. I’m still overwhelmed with love for my many dear friends. I hope to reach out to you all sooner rather than later. Please don’t be afraid to reach out to me either. A friendly greeting or smile could do me a world of good.
Keep on living. Enjoy life if you can. Never give up. I know it is hard sometimes. Just know that there are so many with you in whatever the struggle. No matter how alone you feel, if no one else, I love you and believe in you. Knowing this has gotten me through. I hope it can get you through as well.
Shalom, dear ones.
The featured image is my Grandfather, Ralph Friedrich. He is breathing his last breaths and I dedicate this post to him. My promise to stay alive.