I closed my eyes only to see a monster staring back at me.
I have seen this monster before only not in my dreams.
His name is… Hell if I say his name; like Voldemort, it gives him power
My brain has a leach sucking my happiness, my joy
Like a mosquito in exchange filling me with an itch I can’t scratch
I scratch as hard as I can, I claw my brain until it’s left in shreds
You couldn’t tell with the naked eye that I’m at war behind my smile
Assaulted daily by my brain all because I was abused and raped and refused to speak until their was nothing left inside of me
It was all hidden in the nightmare of my brain
I wake and sleep ignoring the noose that is silently lurking by
I’m done I want to scream but I don’t because I’m not that person
Because I’m stronger damn it.